I can never ever be optimistic. I've tried so hard to think otherwise. But this brain is obliged to only do one thing, which is to think the worst of any situation. I'm tired of thinking of the unseen future, i try to foretell, with all those worthless assumptions and mindless rants, those sleepless nights, and the most ridiculous of all, not with a slightest pinch of effort.
BRAINS = 1oo%
WORK = o%
I am pissed of thinking of others too much and none for myself. So I'm not self-absorbed after all.
Oh crap, just shut up already.
Back to the littlest things in life, i have a new obsession.
No, not my psp, but these cute little tiny bastards.

The fat bloated mother, rubbed against my leg, meow-ing and purring, and white stuff formed on the pussy's pussy. So i assumed, it was time. I had to react and performed some surgery. I've always wanted to be a surgeon. Oh well, that was my time.
I was there, when their breathless mother, shrieked, hissed, shrugged, moaned, whatever those pregnant cat do. I helped her delivered. I rubbed her tummy downwards, hoping something would happened. And it did. Out came out 3 hungry monsters, full of blood, the stench of ovary and the fallopian tube maybe? Gruesome. She licked the blood off them right clean! And they attacked their mother's tits after 1-3 minutes of birth. I was amused. Thank god we humans don't have to lick our own babies.
Oh they're not mine, can't be bothered with the poo and the pee.But they're beautiful creatures and they can't even open their eyes yet.Sometimes i do carry those lightweight creatures, and wonder what would happen if i hold them really, really, really, tight...... hmmm..
I kid, i kid.
I AM A SAD-ass. goodnight.
OH, HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAMINI daughter of SOMETHING, SOMETHING.