I just want to be enclosed in my own bubble,

be in complete solitude where i can only hear my own thoughts

and the occasional wild escapades of what my imagination sets me through,

to be immersed with my total self and be away from the brimming pot of

negativity of the real world which is mostly filled with actions of the juvenile.

I miss you(r presence)

What is it about muse's music that makes me run the extra mile,

take a stronger step on the tracks, feel all the load off my shoulders,

with my spirits lifted so high up, for a second, i was flying...

I always feel i always have to be on all fours.

At the same time i have to bring my guard up.

I feel i am in this sphere made of an invisible layer of hatred.

I find myself casted at the very end of the line.

The more i learn about it, the higher i find myself at.

But I can't seem to bring myself high enough.

I do not believe i am not capable.

I am just not there yet.

If it means i have to do it this way, by all means, i will.

Overview:

Dragon people had more good news than bad news in 2008, year of Rat. But the fortune of Dragon people in 2009 will be slide down a little bit. (08' was already so bad! I'll start eating stones for 09') Dragon people will have a better health than last year. But the career luck and money luck won't be that good comparing with 2008. (kill me) This is because that many Unlucky Stars appear in the same time and those Unlucky Stars bring obstacles and suppress morale on Dragon people. Fortunately, there is a Lucky Moon Star coming this year. That means someone will appear to help and support you when you are in big trouble. (mummy?) Thus, you have a chance to take a break while fighting against adversity. (my whole life is a huge adversity)

Career:

You had the Lucky Moon Star showing in career area in 2008. You could get the support from a female mentor and you could have the chance to show you talent on your job position. (loving the gender) However, it will be different in 2009. The coming Unlucky Stars will block your career opportunity. Your job performance won't reach your goal. (uh huh...why am i not surprise) The your characteristics will become passive and negative. (hasn't it always been like that?) The bad reputation and dispute will come next. (what reputation do i have to begin with?) You need great energy, strong determination and persisting patience to get out the predicament in the year of Cow. (can i just eat that bloody cow)

Money:

The Lucky Moon Star should be a good sign for you money luck. But your wealth will increase or not, depending on the progress of your career or business. (so vague) Since the career luck is tough this year, therefore the money luck will be limited. (*shakes coins in pocket*) Another Unlucky Star is found in money area. (fuck that little star!) That means you have a opportunity to earn more money, but you still have a good chance to suffer money loss. In short, your money luck in 2009 is that money comes and money goes. (must be the on the 101 items i have been eyeing on) Since the money luck is unstable. You shouldn't try any gambling to wish wining more by a small investment. This dream won't happen in 2009. (judging by how the rate is going, all dreams won't happen)

Love: (none)

Your love fortune will be about the same to year 2008. (loserish?) The good news is the Lonely Star doesn't appear in 2009 anymore. (it died of loneliness) If you are married, then you will spend more time with your spouse. Both of your hearts will get even closer. You should be able to maintain a happy marriage. If you are in love, your dating time will increase. You and your lover will get along well and the love relationship will be stronger and closer. You will feel harmony, happiness, sweet and warm all the time. If you are single, then you might be lonely for a while, since there is no strong love sign coming. (why not just throw 27 cats at me now, give me something to knit and a rocking chair to rest my ass on and make me a loser for the rest of my life)

Health:

Basically, there is no major health problem for Dragon people in 2009. (okay...that's one good thing so far) You will have a safe and healthy Cow year. (ox lah!) However, the seniors still have to pay attention in September and December. If they get sick during that time, they need more time to recover. If the young people don't not have enough sleeping at night, then they will have trouble to concentrate during the day, which will affect their performance at work. If they keep living this way, their health will deteriorate in the second half of the year. (it is happening right about........ now)

Fortune:

The luck of Dragon people in the year of Cow is not that great, but it's still fine. Although, Dragon people will encounter more trouble in career area. But they still have a helper or supporter around to protect them. (thanks in advance whoever you are) As long as you focus on your job duty, make sure to deliver your task completely, avoid the argument with people, spend more time with your mentors, then your career should be fine in 2009. There is a money loss sign this year. You shouldn't expect any good money return from the investment. If you are not greedy and won't gamble, then you should be able to balance your budget in the year of the Cow. (i am greedy and i do not know how to budget myself. ever. won't happen.)

Ting Tings were awesome!

I was browsing through shelves and boxes in my room
and i looked into a box with a brick pattern on it.

I didn't quite remember what was in it,
but when i opened, it brought me to the past,
like how i didn't expect it would.
It was filled with cards, notes and some pictures when i haven't lost my youth yet.
Cards from friends that didn't managed to stay on and are acquaintances by now.
It brought sweet memories, and i realised i miss them.
From lengthy hand made Christmas cards from friends,
a long lost crush cute rendition of Valentine day card with spongebob on it,
a few birthday cards with messages that were obviously scribbled on at the very last minute,
a few notes and cards that summarised a phase of time when i thought i was actually in love,
and a small card with a phone number and some begging on it, from a stalker.

GOD!
And speaking of desperation,
I realised i have not been celebrating Valentine Day for 2 years now.
Make it a third time and i might win a free t-shirt with the letter 'L' on it from cupid.

Bleah.
Date me out on 14th February anyone?
I promise i won't bite.
But just some nibbling action, maybe?

As of today, i am running away!

Hehe!

2009. A brand new year. A year i thought i would start fresh.

But when my optimistic's gear starts to oil up,

all these streak of bad omen will come swooping down.

LITERALLY!

It began last night, when i was late for something, and i thought i misplaced my phone.

Being my paranoid self, i immediately assumed that it was stolen.

So i scurried through my bag pack without noticing the other valuables in the bag.

I was feeling through the bag, my eyes lingered elsewhere scanning for my Nokia N82,

as usual uttering some vulgarities while I'm at it.

Then came in a huge smash. I looked down, there goes my sacred bottle of Calvin Klein perfume.

Broken into pieces, like my heart....

The liquid fragrance immediately evaporated and i knew no way in hell i could save it.

.....and then my phone starts to vibrate in my bag.

DOWN!

Later, came in the worse of things. I was walking around Clarke Quay with some friends.

My slippers had the sudden tendency to just break free. It broke.

So i ended up wearing really, ugly, wet black shoes, with yellow painted stains on it.
Don't ask why.

I received stares and cheap looks from others.

But oh well, who could blame them.

Therefore, i thought the day would end with a sweet bliss.

Nothing worse could happen.

But obviously i thought wrong.

Minding my own business, i was walking to a nearby MacDonald's for breakfast.

So while i was walking, i felt this sudden sharp pain on my head.

It was like a familiar prick from an ex girlfriend's angry nails.

I looked to my right, i saw 2 (fat) girls.

One was giggling, the other was utterly shocked.

I thought they had something to do with it.

But then i heard squawking.

After 2 seconds, it hit me.

A crow came swooping down from the sky, with its razor sharp claws,

grasped onto my scalp and my hair.

So, being shocked, i went, ''Oh..my..fucking..god..'' loudly.

I was then laughed at by four (fat) unknown people.

And i don't get why me, when there were others beside me! WHY!

I felt like i was infected by 1 million and 1 diseases from the crow.

I felt so dirty that i showered for a very long time,

and this is coming from a person that could shower for 'an episode of Friends' long.

and i might have gained a phobia, or two.

So that concludes my unlucky endeavour.

All in a night.

So WHY?! What did i do now! I do not understand.

What magic did i casted wrongly?

Which demon did i fed cow's milk?

Which ladder did i walked under?

What other mirrors did i broke?

Which black cat crossed my way?

Just please, please, leave me and my dark circles alone.