that feeling is back again.

the one that makes me feel isolated from various worlds.
the one that makes me tingle.
the one that makes me lurk.
the one that intrigues curiosity.
the one that speculates trouble.
the one that spells jaded.
the one that tears me solely.

i was deluded.
maybe i was blinded.
maybe it was all me.
all me.....

i should not,
i shall not,
i will not.
but i want to.

so, so badly...