is it true that the pessimistic tends to hang out in a bunch,
rant about life and its despair
and be sad and sorry about their lives
but not going to do anything about it.

i think i'm one of them.
but where's my sad circle.
maybe its already there just that we drown our sorrows with
alcohol, nice clothes and other people's misery.

i am in this sudden mood to swim, cycle, blade,
drink by the beach.
i miss a lot of people.
people i knew from when i was a child.
secondary school days.
working days.
people i knew from people.

they're there.
busy with lives.
so it feels like
they're all gone.
they were fun.

maybe the thoughts of getting back to school after a week's rest,
is the reason.
i want to be sick again.
so that i don't have to be in school.
my work's piling up.
oh god.
i hate to do this catching up shit.
if only life is a real track.
talking about tracks, i need to get back on it.
i miss running.

my head is in the clouds now.
this dream.
its lowering.
getting back to reality.
slowly.

i have been neglecting so many things.
argh.
can i just not face them.
i just want to be in this spot that i like.
life sucks, balls.

Mabel rocks.
she plans everything.
movie marathon.
food, beer, be lazy.
looking forward.

its a nice feeling going to the 7-eleven late at night.
with the breeze.
what?
what's with me.