i have a certain fear of public restrooms.
first of all, i would of course prefer it very, very clean.
but still, the clean ones doesn't always seems to be clean.
cause bacterias are unseen, that's for sure.

i am hoping that somehow ALL public restrooms will have toilet seat covers.
so that when i step in a cubicle, the first thing i see are not splashes of deep yellow pee,
and some strands of pubic hair on the toilet seat.

i don't see the reason why there are pubic hair!
are they plucking it? or somehow they scratched their balls and it fell off a little?
in any case, whatever mystical way the hair fell off,
dudes should have like a little consideration to at least use a toilet paper to dust it away,
rather than it lay down there like its waiting for other pubic hair to play with,
or dangling by the side of the toilet seat.
fucking gross.............!

about the droplets of unpleasant pee,
we boys/men somehow have the tendency of not shooting it right.
it sucks though, but that's where the peeing stand comes in.
you can pee freely without aiming into the rather big hole.
i take initiative, for sure.

oh i feel public restrooms are like a lucky draw.
you wouldn't know what you will win!
syphilis, herpes, gonorrhea, you name it! they got it!

and after some time when you feel some itchiness,
sanitize, people! you caught something from somewhere,
and its growing into something and hopefully it will not start to befriend you at night.
creepy.



one more fear i have is regarding contact lenses.
sure good brands are superbly comfortable.
loving the tenderness they give to my eyes.
but still thoughts and worries sparks now and then.

for example like if i fell asleep, will it like go to the back of my eye and i need surgery to dig out the piece of plastic?

or when i am cooking on a hot stove, will the heat melt the plastics and i go fully blind and starts singing at mrt stations playing a harmonica........................................

paranoia, paranoia.... not getting me anywhere.
okay i am tired.