i am jinxed. from all the gypsies of the oceans, i am the jinxed one.
i am so easily deluded. by little things.
sometimes shiny things that sparkles, like crystals or a set of keys.
i am in this haze of emotions. i do not have a direction.
what a man to do for his needs?
what's with me. i swear i don't get it.
this constant craving for attention.
gnawing away through the facts of life,
being oblivious about every single thing that really matter.
i need to get a kick. open my eyes to the obvious.
the naked truth. the reality of the situation.
to realise where i stand once again.
it is all clouded.
why is this always trouble.
why do i not get it every single time.
i need not to be smart. just logical.
oh GOD!!!!!!!
when will this ever stop.
i cannot take this any longer.
SIGH