Feeling a whole lot of disappointment in myself.
Gosh. I am all set for failure. I am an imminent object
in their eyes, something that should be left aside untouched,
a source of nastiness and mediocrity, for this matter that
doesn't deserve a second look... and everything is proven to be right.

How do i redeem myself from now?

A bucket of loathing sure won't cut it.

Which reminds me, the world I am in at different hours

is a parallel universe where I am not myself.

Or am i?